Confessions of an Unpicked Rosebud

I’ve always loved fairytales when I was young. I admired lovely princesses flashing their debonair ensembles and demure auras. And of course, there are always Prince Charmings… always there as a knight-in-shining-armor for the princesses. But what is it that makes a fairytale click?
Now that I’m a teenager, I crave for romantic-comedy movies. Aside from liking the crazy antics of the characters, I admire the “kilig” moments between the leading lady and his main man. Wahahaha!
Ok, so here’s Ariel and Prince Eric, Jack and Rose, Kate and Leopold, Sam and Austin, or Bokbok and Poknat (hahaha). Sound’s familiar?
Most of the time, these kinds of stories have happy endings. And how we wish we can also experience those! But most of the time, not..
I’ve always wondered what it feels like to have somebody walk me home, talk with on the phone late nights, buy me nice presents, date me on restaurants or in the carenderia, perhaps?(hahaha)… maybe, I wouldn’t mind wanting to look good for someone. Maybe, I wouldn’t mind letting that special someone hold my hand, or hold me when I’m just weak to go on… or maybe just maybe…
This sounds awful coming from me, honestly! HAHA… I’m not into rushing things. I’m just wondering what it feels like to be in-love and be loved in return. Uh, it’s not the maternal/paternal/friendly love… I’m pretty sure you know what I’m talking about. (oh no, I can’t believe I’m saying these…)
In short, I’m an NBSB (No Boyfriend Since Birth)—it’s cute but it’s getting tired (hahaha…very stupid!). It’s always that I’m too young for it, my parents won’t allow me, and the school-first policy. In any case, I’m single! There were times in my life when I started wondering whether I’m pretty enough (I’ll always be… nanu man, palag ka?! hehe) or interesting at all! My friends are getting coupled, and I’m the only one who’s not (ouch!).
Of course, there were young boys who came in and out of my life. But for me, it was enough for just being friends or m.u.’s, and no more than that. But the most “horrific” situation I’ve been through was when I liked someone who didn’t even like me back (darn!). Well, it’s ok… I’m immune to that!
(sighs..)Well, I’m ok with it. I’m not asking to have a bf right away! All I am looking forward to is the experience (love the anticipation!). It doesn’t matter if I’m missing out on this Valentine’s day by being alone. I’ll have someone someday! hehehehe
You know what they say about being happy only while you’re wanting something? Well, there’s a lot of truth to that. The adage, “Be careful what you wish for, you might just get it” is apt. My coupled friends could be getting all that sweet talks, stuff toys, lovely roses (which will just wilt afterwards), chocolates, and whatsoever on Valentine’s day… but could very well just be prepping for phones slamming and voices raising that same night because “Mr. Perfect” wasn’t considerate enough to buy the right kind of teddy bear for them. True, they found a boy, but is he the boy they were happily dreaming about?
(laughs) That’s life. I may not have that someone right now. But I am happy and content. There’s nothing wrong with being single! It’s great to be free, with no strings attached, no commitments to bother, no responsibilities (duh!). I can stay out late every night, I can wear whatever I want. Yeah, singleness can suck when I get stuck in a rut. But the beauty of being single is that I can change my life without causing a commotion… be a punk one day, a princess the next. Everyone may think that I’m insane, but hey, as long as they love the new me!
And the best thing about it is that the whole world sees that I can take good care of my own self.
But you know what? I wouldn’t mind being bound to someone who cares for me… who understands, who sees my worth… I wouldn’t mind being bound to someone I love and who loves me! I’ll have a happy ending someday, just like in the fairytales , koreanovelas, soap operas, or romantic-comedy flicks…:-)